Sunday morning, in Florida.

Couldn't sleep last night. It's funny how when you are really tired after working a lot, you can't sleep. I worked 18 hours yesterday, and all day the one thing on my mind was "I can't wait to get home and get some sleep". When I got home around 1am I needed to wind down and relax, so I did, until about 4am. Then, I awoke bright and early at 7:30am! I think that it is because I work every other day at that time, funny how that works, the one day I want to sleep-in I can't because my body wants to work. I tried going back to bed, but that didn't work! So here I am typing away when I could be sleeping.

I talked to my cousin Mike Hope last night for a little while, he sounds like he is doing really well. I hope that I will be able to go and visit him either next month or in febuary. He made me feel really old when he told me that he will be turning 30 next month. Where does the time go? He said he'll be coming down to florida sometime in febuary or march when the plane tickets get cheaper.

I'm still taking the Zolfot, and I think all in all it is helping. However, I still get panic attacks once in awhile, but they don't last as long and they don't carry into the next day. Every time I had one I had had a drink, so I have decided to stop drinking completely until I have run thru my meds. The mind is such a crazy thing, I know that most of my symptoms are all in my head, but for some reason they keep coming back. I wish I had a new brain.

Work is good. I have been making good money for the past week. Tis the season. I wish that Christmas would last all year round! The one thing that I have realized after working so hard for the past couple months, is that I really need to go back to school so that I can get a job and make some real money. I feel like I have the potential to do great things, and it is being wasted on waiting tables. The recurring comment that I get from my guest "Here's my card, call me when you graduate, I could use someone like you". It is starting to get old. People seem to think that I am a great people person and that I can sell just about anything to anyone, but I need that damn degree for anyone to consider hiring me. New years resolution......GO BACK TO SCHOOL!

Tiana is doing great, she is in kindergarden and loving it! She is one of the cool kids at school. She misses her uncle Angelo a lot! So if your reading this you need to come and visit! She asks me at least once a week "when is Uncle Angelo coming home?" She looks more and more like me everyday, I can't get over it.

My love life is fine, no big news. Still with the same girl, no wedding bells in the near future. Girls are a pain in the ass. I'm considering becoming a porn star and just saying fuck it to relationships.

Gonna go and try to get some sleep, write more later.

FOUR DOUBLES IN A ROW!!!!

I have been working a ridiculous amount of hours so that I have some extra cash for the holiday season! Tomorro is my last one, and I have so much to write about. So until then.......

Playstation 3......

After the game we went to Walmart for some house hold items and this is what we saw when we arrived.......
I took this picture with my phone, so the qaulity is not that great. If you look close you can see about 100 people camping infront of the store. Why are they doing this you ask..........? They are waiting for the arrival of the new Playstaion 3, which comes out on Friday the 17th. Crazy! Not for me....

Magic WIN!

Kristen and I went to see the Orlando Magic stomp up on the Denver Nuggets tonight! WOOT-WOOT! I was originally gonna work tonight, but I got a call around 3 o'clock from an old freind (Sean Sullivan)telling me that he had an extra ticket for the game tonight. At first we wern't gonna go because he only had one ticket but since Kristen hasn't ever gone to an NBA game I thought that it would be fun to go and check it out. We arrived at the game about 15 minutes early planning on getting some scalped tickets. However, when we arrived at the game Sean had already got us two tickets...............but.............we wern't sitting next to eachother! I didn't think that it was a big deal because I thought that we could just sneak in and sit where ever we wanted to.........and we did..........until we kept having to get up because people kept showing up, and we were in their seats. This got really annoying! Kristen ended up getting pissed off because we couldn't sit next together and walked out of the game! She made it as far as the parking lot.........got in the car......and started to drive off.........then she listened to me and parked.........and we went back to the game. I bought some scalped tickets from some guy for a low price, and they were floor seats! Kristen got over her little hissy-fit and we both got to enjoy the game. The seats were really good! I have never watched a game that close before. The court looks so much bigger when it is on T.V. With all the drama of Kristen throwing a "Wally" we only missed about half of one quarter. So we still got to watch pretty much the whole game.

The Magic ended up wining the game 108 to 99! Woot-Woot! So what started off as a rocky night, ended up being a really good one!

Back to normal!

I can say that I feel 100% better! The only difference is that I have to eat toast in the morning so that I don't puke! But I feel better! It is great!

Feeling even better!

Today is really the first day since taking my new meds that I am feeling good. I only blew chunks once! That is a big deal, since usaully it happens close to ten times before noon. I am about to get dressed to go to work, hopefully I will make lots of money! I work doubles for the next two days, I am really not looking forward to it. I am gonna have dinner at my mothers house on sunday, so I'll let you know how I feel after working a bunch!

Feeling Better!

So, I am almost half a week into my meds and I am starting to feel better. I have been taking it wicked easy! I haven't worked since Saturday; I think I needed the rest. I am trying to get back into writing on a more regular basis, mainly so that my brother puts me back on his friends' list on his blog. I was insulted that he took me off, so if you are reading this Angelo, PUT ME BACK ON!

The past two days I have been spending much of my time with my family. I think my daughter enjoys the time with her 6 year old aunt and 9 year old uncle. My daughter is almost 6 years old....... where does the time go? It feels like just yesterday she was crawling around on the floor, and now she is asking for make-up and beauty supplies.

My mother just pulled out a home baked apple pie from the oven, and I have to go and buy some vanilla ice cream....

I know that my writing is all over the place, but I haven't written anything in a while so hopefully if I keep it up it will get better!

Zoloft!

So, I've heard that if you work hard you can achieve anything. Well, it seem that the only thing that I have "achieved" is a prescription for Zoloft. Apparenly I have a panic disorder, where I get panic attacks all the time. It sucks! The worst part of it now is that the only real worry that I panic about now is if I am going to get a panic attack. That sucks even more! So yes...... all of my hard work has turned me into a little depressed bouncing ball. I start my meds tonight, the doctor says that it should start kicking-in in about a week and a half. I hope so!

In other news....... Emily (Angelo's GF) came home yesterday! Woot-woot! I gave her a grand welcoming back by being almost two hours late to the airport! ( I was at the doctors, getting my Zoloft). Sorry Em..... I tried to make it up to her by taking her out to dinner. So on the way to drop her at my mother's house we stopped at Don Pablo's, which is a Tex-Mex reasturant. We got to catch up and chat, she kept saying that she was in culture shock....... looking at the menu.... and.......what?.........no SPAM! After dinner I dropped her off at my mothers house, we all hung out for a couple of hours and chatted. It was also the first time that my mother and jimmy spent any time with my GF Kristen, I hope that she still likes me after meeting the whole family!

Some random pics......

Boyz night out

In the club with Corey

After Dinner

Before Dinner

Mike Hope and Kaia

I know that I havn't been keep'n up with my blog, however, I have good excuses. Well, for one........ I'm lazy! When I'm not working one of my jobs, or at the gym, or hanging out with tiana or kristen, I just like to sit around and do nothing. So therfore my blog suffers! Sorry all! Not that many people read my site, but......whatever!

And once again I don't have time to write much, so....hope you like the pics.

Some Pics Of Tiana......

cheese
going to see cars
new hair cut!

I am gonna have some more pics from the 4th of july on later tomorro.

TODAY!!!! The Day Of My Birth!!!!! The Big 25!!!!!!

Today is my birthday! Probably the most uneventful birthday that I have had up until now. I was supposed to have dinner with a family member, but the dinner got cancelled. What's new. Had to work this morning at 6:30am and got finished at around 3:30pm. Uneventful. After that I spent the next three hours running around tieing up some loose ends. It's about 7pm and I am just sitting around not doing anything, and don't have anything planned. Well.......since this has been my worst birthday ever, they can only get better. Trying to be positive! Oh yea, on top of everything, I am getting SICK!

80 HOURS A WEEK!!!!!! .........I'm tired.

Sorry for not putting up any posts latley. I am still trying to get used to working two jobs! It's not easy! My next day off is next thrusday, so I will try to put some new post on that day.

Comments......?

Ok.... her's the thing. I like it when people leave me comments! It lets me know that someone other than Angelo is reading my blog! (No offence Ange you know I love you!) So.........
If you visite my page and you see that I put something interestging, instead of just laughing, or saying some comment in your head, take two minutes and write something! I am interested in who is reading my blog. It inspires me to write more!

Otters, turtles, and crocagators.........OH MY!

We all woke up bright and early, excited that we would be spending the day out on the river. T got to school right on time, and then we had one stop, Publix, for sandwiches and snacks, and then off to Kings Landing, out by Apopka. Kings Landing is a dock where people go to lauch canoes from, if you have your own it is like 5 dollars to rent one from them is 30. The river that you lauch from, takes you on an eight mile run down the wekiva, it is one of my faviorite things to do in orlando. I have been going on this run since I was in middle school, when my mother would take me. I had some of my best childhood memories on those trips! (Thanx Mom!) To our horror, when we arrived it was closed! I was so pissed! However, we planned to have a day in the sun and thats what we were gonna do! So instead of going home mad, we went to the Wekiva Springs State Park, and rented a double cayak(sp?). I was so much fun! Here are some pics......

Me and Kristen before getting on the water
Baby Crocagator

just chillin

one of three otters

Bird Hunter

some type of crane(?)

After about three hours we decieded to call it a day, and we headed back home. Kristen went to work, I picked up T and went to the the gym. After the gym T went swimming at the apartment, and I have been messing around with this thing for the last couple of hours.

The tooth fairy....

I picked Tiana up from her mothers house yesterday and couldn't help but notice that her front left tooth was hanging from a string. I have to say that it was a bit nasty! I picked her up at around 1 o'clock and I didn't have to work until 6, so we had some time to try and get it out before work. I didn't want her to accidentally swollow the tooth! She was really brave, she let me push it, pull it, yank on it, but nothing really worked.

We arrived at teche's house(baby sitter) just before six and told her to watch T and if she notices the tooth fall out to save it for me. Went to work............picked T up just before 10pm, no luck the tooth was stubbornly hanging on for dear life! Teche and Chuck tell me that it would be a good Idea to put some ambasol on her gums and then just yank the sucker out! I may look like a big tough guy, but on the inside I am a big baby when it comes to yanking teeth out of my 5 year old. I reluctently take accept some ambasol that Teche and Chuck give me for her tooth. One more stop until we can go home. Kristen(GF) is without a car until tuesday, so me and the T'ster have to go to her work place and pick her up. When we get there Kristen walks out with an apple; now why didn't I think of that? We start are 15minute drive home from picking Kristen up and 5minutes into it I hear a loud yell from the back seat......."I got it out!" "yaaaaaaa BaaaByy!", T is such a ham! We quickly call as many people as possible and tell them the great news, "T's black last tooth finally fell out!". (If you remember about a year ago T fell on her front teeth and they turned black) We got home and put her tooth in a safe place and went to bed................But there is more!

I woke up to "daddy, daddy, daddy, look........" Tiana was holding up a tooth... I try to shake off the morning and focus on what she is holding. "T I know you lost your tooth last night!"....... "No daddy, this is the bottom one!"

Tiana woke up this morning with her bottom tooth missing! That is so wierd! Two teeth in one day! To celebrate we played hooky from school and I took her out to breakfast at my new job. She had Chocolate Chip pancakes! It is about 7:30 pm and I am writing this sitting out on the pool deck watching T swim with a couple of the niegborhood kids...(Just took the pic of T in her swim suit) All in all I think we had a pretty fun day!

Kristen and I are going to Kings landing tomorro to do some caneoing, I'm gonna bring my camera and I'll write about my adventures tomorro night!


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What do you think about the pic qaulity? I took them with my phone. Let me know!

Sorry........I've been really busy!

I know, I know, I know............ Sorry for not updating more often, but to tell you the truth I have been super busy latley and havn't had a chance! I am off the next two days and I will be writing alot tonight and tomorrow night I promise! So for the over cap.........

*Got another job.
*By day I sling hash and eggs, by night I sell USDA prime beef.

*Started going to the gym everyday.

It doesnt' sound like alot, but the new job adds another 35 hours a week to my schedule, on top of that I start work at 6:30am four days a week! Between the two jobs I go to the gym; I found that taking a nap makes me more tired. I promise to write more tonight when I get home from the gym.

Tiana's Graduation....

I never thought that at 24 I could start feeling old! But I guess having a 5 year old does throw some extra years on you. Tiana graduated from pre-k on Tuesday(I'll have pics up soon, promise) and I'll be truthful, it made me feel older. All the other parents kept laughing about how highschool is just a blink away; I don't want to think about Tiana in highshool! The ceremony was very cute! They had small chairs for all of the kids lined up outside, with all the parents and friends standing behind where the kids were sitting. They played the graduation marching song and all the kids walked out, single file and sat down, it was so cute! The four teachers called up all the kids in their class one at time and gave them their diploma and took a picture for the parents. This took all of 20 minutes. I must say it was the fastest graduation that I have ever attended! After the ceremony there were refreshments inside, and then everyone went home. I left T at school for about an hour because she wanted to play with her friends a little longer. When we got home we just kinda chilled until I made dinner(chammorro chicken) and then we took a nice walk down the street to the park and played for a couple of hours.

I took Tiana to Ruth's Chris Steakhouse for her graduation dinner, the night before her graduation. I know it sounds strange to take a 5 year old to a steakhouse, but when I asked her where she wanted to go for her special dinner she said " I want a juicy steak!" so that's what she got! After dinner we went and saw Over the hedge, the new kid movie about the little animals. I don't really recommend it, it wasn't very good.

I can't believe this.........ARGGGGG!!!!!

OK! I just go finished with a post that took me about an hour to write....so where is it you ask? Well, I clicked on Preview in the top right corner of the screen to see how everything looked, saw a couple of misprints, so I clicked the "Back" button to correct them....and.....BAM.....no more post! Damn you Blog....Damn you!!! I'll write more latter on when I am not so pissed off!

Still just messin with pics..........

Pictures!!!!! I figured it out!!!!!

It is all coming together!!! I am starting to get it!! And it only took me all night and half a day!!!
No real reason why I picked this pic I just wanted to see if it worked.........








Me and Kristen out and about in orlando

Day two.....this is harder than I thought it would be!

So..... I stayed up till about 4:30am trying to figure out how this whole blog thing works! It is much harder than I thought it would be. I'm sure that once I get the hang of it, it will be like secound nature. (well at least I hope!) I woke up around 9:00am and turned the computer back on.......arrrggggg!!! I think I am already hooked. I'm probably not gonna write another post until I figure out how to post pics and stuff like that........ If anyone has any good tips or any thing like that feel free to share......it would be much appreciated!

My first blog Post ever!

It's 2:30am on sunday moring, can't sleep, watching chicken little. I get a great idea! I should start a blog! All the cool people seem to be doing it, so why not me..........so here I am. My hopes for what this blog will do for me,

1. Help with my writing skills.
2. Keep my family and friends up to date with how I am doing.
3. I keep telling my-self that I need a hobbie, and I think this might just be it.