Didn't blog for almost two years!

I can't believe that it has almost been two years since my last post. So much has happened that I wouldn't even know where to start. April 2009, I know I was single and not even thinking of settling down, I wasn't even close to finishing school, and life wasn't that bad. Fast forward two years and I am two classes away from graduating from the top school in the south, I am engaged to be married and I am for the most part really happy. I still work at the same place, and don't plan on changing that until I graduate, but as history has taught me who knows what will happen. Life always has a funny way of throwing you curve balls when you least expect it.

I don't know where to begin, so I'll start with some current events. School is going fine. I had to drop my Operations Management course today because I just couldn't get a grasp of it. I think there should be some type of pre-requisit that you should have to take, I have no idea what it should be, but I wish I would have taken it. To me it was like the class was being taught in another language. I have no idea what Pie over Sigma divided by the Square root of the projected sales even means. Don't get me wrong the class was super interesting, but I didn't know what they were talking about half the time. I did give it the old college try. I went and spoke with the professor and asked for some extra help, but my attempt was futile, it was not meant to be. I know now that I do not want to be a project manager. On a good note, I had my mid-term in my International Buss. development course and I am pretty sure I ACED it! It is a good feeling to take a test and know all of the answers. This class should raise my GPA. I am excited!

I have been feeling so unmotivated lately. I have this tendency to start working out and then just stopping for no apparent reason. I am starting to think that I am lazy. When I work out I feel better, but I just can't talk myself into going to the gym. I even went as far as drawing up a dry erase board with a chart that would track my progress of how much weight I lost and bought a fancy scale that measures my body fat ratio (whatever that is) and just like always for the first week I stayed with it and ran, but after that second week, I don't know, I just kinda stopped doing it. My fat chart looks like a straight line drawn across a board, so sad. I started working out because I just feel unhealthy. To anyone that has been heavy (I have been my whole life) we can tell when we are starting to flirt with the " dude your getting big" voice in our heads. I am complex, I am probably the chubbiest confident person I know. Some people might even say that I carry a bit of arrogance when I walk, what ever, there just jealous. I really want to lose weight, I just wish there was an easier way; if anyone has any good ideas let me know.

I have a lot more to write about but I just don't think I am ready to share everything at the moment. Plus, my fiance and I just had a fight and I think that it is a bad idea for me to write when I am pissed off, in the past it usually leads to more arguing. But I am gonna list some things so that I remember to write about them.

Things to write about in the upcoming weeks.

1. being sober and my experience with A.A.

2. Going back to church and really enjoying it. (life group)

3. How I met Connie

4. Being engaged

That's all I can think of at the moment, I finally have my own laptop computer so hopefully I will start writing on a more regular basis, I feel better when I see my issues written down. My own therapy.

Yea I'm still alive.......

I know that I post every couple months, and I am sorry.  You have to understand though, I am a very busy person.   I work on average about 75 to 90 hours a week.  I will try harder to post more,  even though my life is pretty lame.

Pagan

Found this picture of my dad fishing on pagan one of the norther most islands in the CNMI. thought I would post it.

I'm an idiot!

So I wake up early this morning with the intention of getting my day off to a glorious start! I arrive 45 minutes early to my sat. morning class, I'm feeling pretty good. I buy a new note book at the book store, along with some pens and a Rollins pencil. Get to class ten minutes early; no one's there.......... I wait. No one shows up, even past the time that class is to start. I wait..........? I go to the library to make sure I have the right information. I'M AN IDIOT. Yea I'm early! Two weeks early! Class should start next week, however in recognition of Martin Luther my first class does not start until Jan. 24. At least I'm trying to be more punctual!

My family!

Name for a GAY Club/Bar

Ok, here's the deal I'm trying to come up with a name for a gay bar, but am having some trouble. Will you help me?

Here are some of the names that I've hear so far:

The Male Box (laura)

The Hidden Cove (kiki)
The Swallows
G & L BAR
The Closet

The man hole (thanks dana)

Sir-Loins (Sherri)

Licks (mine)

Lolli pops (Mine)

Fantasy (Catie)

THE GAY BAR (Mine)

Back door bar (Mine)

The Garage (Catie)

The Office (jimmy)

Help me out post what you think.

Back to School!

I doubt that anyone will be reading this post since I havn't written anything in such a long time, but Im gonna write it anyway.
I am proud to say that I am offically signed up for classes, well, a class. That's better then nothing though. I am trying to be like the tortise, slow but persistant. Someone I respect asked me once "how do you eat an elephant?" I don't know, I replied. "One bit at a time" he answered. Words of wisdom, I'm looking for progress not perfection.
The past six months have been a humbling experience for me. I have put forth an effort to seclude myself from the negative influnces that once poisioned my body and mind. In my seclusion I found much time to look inwards and see myself for who I am, and for who I was on track of becoming. I wasn't happy with what I saw. I push myself now, to be better than average in everything I do. I feel that I have grown more in the past six months then I have in the past six years. I know that I am young for saying this, but time passes by way too quickly. What have I done the past six years? What have I accomplished? Not enough! I guess what I am saying is that I have found myself. No, I don't have any answers at the moment on what I want to be or where am I gonna be in six years, but I know who I am gonna be and the type of character I will have.
I can't take the credit for my progress, I owe my life to my parents. At twenty seven years old I think I am finally getting a grasp on what it takes to officailly grow up. So to both of you, thank you.

Future Girl Band!

Some pics from the last six months!